"The most difficult part of birth is the first year afterwards. It is the year of travail - when the soul of a woman must birth the mother inside her. The emotional labour pains of becoming a mother are far greater than the physical pangs of birth; these are the growing surges of your heart as it pushes out selfishness and fear and makes room for sacrifice and love. It is a private and silent birth of the soul, but it is no less holy than the event of childbirth, perhaps it is even more sacred." - Joy Kusek
It has been 10 weeks and 2 days since I became a mama of two and we a family of four. In those weeks, everything has changed...time, rhythm...life. The birth of Sequoia Rae compelled a shift in my being, so deep and so intimate. I will soon tell the story of her birth, when the time and words are right. The journey is etched in my memory, and I visit that day often.
For now, I want to honor my mama. The one who put herself aside to be a full-time, fully present mother to my brother and I. The one who never missed a moment of our lives. Through every tear, every laugh...she has loved us through and through. And we know it. We've always known it. I am grateful beyond words for all she has done..all she has given and sacrificed. I can only hope to be as good a mother to my girls as she has been, for that would be the greatest gift I could ever give them.
Mom, I love you.
Thank-you Nicole for those beautiful words. I tried to be the best Mom like my Mom was to me. I love both you and your brother with my whole heart and soul, and like my mom used to say I would give you the blood out of my body. Never have doubt, you are already the best Mama to you girls and you will always be. I love you!!!!!
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